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lolabobsIt's been a good day overall.
I finished my SS last night - then lay awake half the night questioning it and if I should have done x or y differently! I normally sit on anything for a while deciding if I hate it or not but the deadline drama (as in, me being late!) hasn't given me that luxury! I may just bribe the organisers to remove my name altogether! As that wasn't the only thing preventing me from sleeping and I overslept this morning after spending the night staring at the ceiling in frustration for the hours 2-4am, but I managed to get to work on time - to find a Christmas present on my desk from a colleague, and an email from boss giving me a 'free' afternoon off next week. Not quite sure why, but I'm not complaining.
I then went to a partially derelict secure mental hospital for a meeting with/about an offender. We (professionals) chatted for a while as they gave updates of offender's good progress and team work. The offender was then invited to join us. Whilst the nurse (male, 6ft plus) went to get him there was this sudden flurry of activity as the other staff there cleared away the cups and saucers, hid the tea urn and checked the weight of the chairs. Just before he got there they rearranged our seating so that the offender was sandwiched between the 6ft nurse and his equally solid doctor coworker. Then, seeing the look on my colleague's face, they reassured us... "We're just being cautious." Humph. Once offender had left again we came to the Official Progress Report - which detailed the frequently repeated "extremely violent" outbursts where he "punched walls and threw furniture and attacked staff." Again I say humph!
After that my satnav tried to make me drive through a field to get to the road and I decided not to go back to work.
The symptoms and side effects of my fibroid are worsening and, as I missed the hospital appointment last week when I was sick (I know!), I have to wait until the middle of next month for a consultation. In the meantime, as well as the symptoms (I'm not being secretive, but they're probably TMI!) my blood tests are throwing up dodgy results that are now causing me to worry - although there's little point in doing so. - Heh - When I told Mum the date of my next hosp apt she laughed - both she AND Dad have appointments on the same day - I guess we'll make a family outing of it!
As I didn't go back to work, I met my friend and her beautiful children instead. Eve adores her baby sister and spent the afternoon cuddling her and making her laugh. (Eve is 3, Ruby 9 months) - I love spending time with them, but it did get me to thinking, given the above paragraph. I've always kinda accepted I wouldn't be having kids 'cos I'm single and not terribly driven to procreate, but I think I always had a "but maybe..." going on in the background. Now there's a chance that the maybe may be taken away from me I'm having thoughts and questions. Hmmm.
(Although to be fair, I'm freaking a bit about all the options as they all appear to be surgical to some degree.)
Anyway - back to nice things - I got Christmas cards!birggitt What a fun, festive greeting, and enednoviel Very beautiful. Thank you so much!
I also bought more presents today (and three books for myself - oops!) and am nearly, nearly finished. Although facing the realisation of having a shedload of presents to wrap without the benefit of a table doesn't seem too cheery!
Ah well - time to stop wittering.
I finished my SS last night - then lay awake half the night questioning it and if I should have done x or y differently! I normally sit on anything for a while deciding if I hate it or not but the deadline drama (as in, me being late!) hasn't given me that luxury! I may just bribe the organisers to remove my name altogether! As that wasn't the only thing preventing me from sleeping and I overslept this morning after spending the night staring at the ceiling in frustration for the hours 2-4am, but I managed to get to work on time - to find a Christmas present on my desk from a colleague, and an email from boss giving me a 'free' afternoon off next week. Not quite sure why, but I'm not complaining.
I then went to a partially derelict secure mental hospital for a meeting with/about an offender. We (professionals) chatted for a while as they gave updates of offender's good progress and team work. The offender was then invited to join us. Whilst the nurse (male, 6ft plus) went to get him there was this sudden flurry of activity as the other staff there cleared away the cups and saucers, hid the tea urn and checked the weight of the chairs. Just before he got there they rearranged our seating so that the offender was sandwiched between the 6ft nurse and his equally solid doctor coworker. Then, seeing the look on my colleague's face, they reassured us... "We're just being cautious." Humph. Once offender had left again we came to the Official Progress Report - which detailed the frequently repeated "extremely violent" outbursts where he "punched walls and threw furniture and attacked staff." Again I say humph!
After that my satnav tried to make me drive through a field to get to the road and I decided not to go back to work.
The symptoms and side effects of my fibroid are worsening and, as I missed the hospital appointment last week when I was sick (I know!), I have to wait until the middle of next month for a consultation. In the meantime, as well as the symptoms (I'm not being secretive, but they're probably TMI!) my blood tests are throwing up dodgy results that are now causing me to worry - although there's little point in doing so. - Heh - When I told Mum the date of my next hosp apt she laughed - both she AND Dad have appointments on the same day - I guess we'll make a family outing of it!
As I didn't go back to work, I met my friend and her beautiful children instead. Eve adores her baby sister and spent the afternoon cuddling her and making her laugh. (Eve is 3, Ruby 9 months) - I love spending time with them, but it did get me to thinking, given the above paragraph. I've always kinda accepted I wouldn't be having kids 'cos I'm single and not terribly driven to procreate, but I think I always had a "but maybe..." going on in the background. Now there's a chance that the maybe may be taken away from me I'm having thoughts and questions. Hmmm.
(Although to be fair, I'm freaking a bit about all the options as they all appear to be surgical to some degree.)
Anyway - back to nice things - I got Christmas cards!
birggitt What a fun, festive greeting, and enednoviel Very beautiful. Thank you so much! I also bought more presents today (and three books for myself - oops!) and am nearly, nearly finished. Although facing the realisation of having a shedload of presents to wrap without the benefit of a table doesn't seem too cheery!
Ah well - time to stop wittering.
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Date: 2008-12-20 02:40 am (UTC)I'm happy you like your card, and I wish you are feeling really ok by now.
*hugs you carefully, just in case*
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