Thanks Laura, I know life goes on, and I know my Dad would hate to see how unhappy we are without him - it's incredibly hard sometimes to marry that knowledge with my feelings though - and I know you know that.

I also know guilt is a classic part of the process but still can't quite manage to oust it completely.

It sucks doesn't it - and yet, it sucks precisely because the love is such a strong part of my life, and I wouldn't be without that for the world.

Thank youfor thinking of me xx