Feeling insecure

[lolabobs]

I'm feeling isolated from my friends, feeling ousted and scared. The trigger for this is a silly thing, linked to something that always happens whenever F is back in town and therefore I know it should be ignored, but today it's getting to me - and in the classic cycle of negative thinking,I'm sitting here telling myself bad things about myself and the way my life is and -

normally I accept it, but sometimes the changes since we lost Dad, my new role as carer/manager of all things and the fact that it means all I ever do is work and visit my Mum, and am a kin dof non person, boring and with nothing to contribute really gets to me.

And it's

Oh I don't know. It's because he's back and when he's back I lose his sister and it all gets scary and sad and I'm going to go to bed instead of feeling sorry for myself.

Comments

[mrs-sweetpeach.livejournal.com]

You are not a non-person and you certainly have things to contribute. I just wrote about four inches of stuff detailing why and LJ ate it. I plan to type all that up again, just as soon as I assure myself that LJ isn't still hungry.

[lolabobs.livejournal.com]

I'm about to answer your second comment, but had to say that I love you measuring your response in inches - it made me think of Harry Potter! x