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I am still here...
..I'm just a little bit broken at the moment.
This whole convalescent thing is a lot more miserable than I anticipated. Healthwise - well I'm getting better. I have less pain and the pain when it is, is less. I have movement and am able to get out of teh house for short periods - taken for drives, or to a shop for a half hour meander. Generally followed by a 2 hour siesta!
I am kinda borked emotionally though. Can't really face people, lethargic, apathetic and, well, just plain miserable really. Scared of even thinking about work. sweeping wafts of woe and weepiness. Insomnia mixed witha fear of even trying to sleep. bored beyond all measure and bored with myself.
It makes me very frustrated with myself.I feel a fraud for being so woeful when I have no real reason, then irritated with myself, then ashamed, then bored, then... yep, poor attention focus to add to the mix!
Anyway. This is just to explain that I've been so very quiet. I feel unable to comment a lot of the time at the moment, but I'm still reading and feeling and caring - just can't really communicate overly well at the minute. Ah well.
I'll post a picture of a kitten in a minute.
This whole convalescent thing is a lot more miserable than I anticipated. Healthwise - well I'm getting better. I have less pain and the pain when it is, is less. I have movement and am able to get out of teh house for short periods - taken for drives, or to a shop for a half hour meander. Generally followed by a 2 hour siesta!
I am kinda borked emotionally though. Can't really face people, lethargic, apathetic and, well, just plain miserable really. Scared of even thinking about work. sweeping wafts of woe and weepiness. Insomnia mixed witha fear of even trying to sleep. bored beyond all measure and bored with myself.
It makes me very frustrated with myself.I feel a fraud for being so woeful when I have no real reason, then irritated with myself, then ashamed, then bored, then... yep, poor attention focus to add to the mix!
Anyway. This is just to explain that I've been so very quiet. I feel unable to comment a lot of the time at the moment, but I'm still reading and feeling and caring - just can't really communicate overly well at the minute. Ah well.
I'll post a picture of a kitten in a minute.
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And yay, kitten.
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many, many hugs to you darling.
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