working on it

I have been reading many entries, but have not made many comments, because there weren't the words. ButI did read, and sometimes said, but just not very often.
I am very bleurgh today. Work was ok, and i am no longer ill ( tho do feel as if I have been sat upon by a donkey) but I feel non specifically sad.
I had cheesy mash for tea which was nice, i watched D&P which was good, also Life on Mars (the bent copper ep) which was exciting.

I feel drained. I would like to sleep fro a week and not have to see anybody and do nothing.

boo.

So tired. been such a hectic two weeks, workwise, really long days, or travelling to training events, I have to go to Bury tom and Fri, which means two 11 hour days. My house is, quite frankly, a pigsty. I have had a 'dodgy' stomach for over a week and I'm exhausted.
self pity much?
Car has been in the garage again - I left them a note saying that "car losing approx pint of water every 4/5 days"-bearing in mind, that I have had overheating/waterleak/gasket problems for over a year. To me, this note clearly states that x amount of water is lost over a 5 day period, not that every 5 days there is a sudden gushing water loss. perhaps I'm the stupid one? Either way they found and fixed a small leak, and they did it for free, so i cant really complain.
I spilt water in my bag today (lid came off the bottle) unfortunatley I was also carrying tampons in my bag, so had sudden erupting/growths/look how absorbent going on in my bag. ug.
I am so tired my eyes have that empty. hollow feeling. As if they have been plucked out and all that remains is two empty sockets, which cold air is gently blowing across the voids. I had to stop myself punching the door - stupid stupid stupid work crap, people who just make me soooooo riled and normally I just 'laff' and g and I sit and bitch about them and it's enough to know that he is irritated too.. today I had to go for a walk to stop myself door smacking. so trivial and long winde dto explain.

and other g, he is not doing his job properly, and how do you tell someone, 'cos its not our place to check up on him, and there's no reason other than us being aware that he is falling down on things. But we have no legitimate reason to be checking up on him. and there's the bit that says why should he get away with it, the bit that says its dangerous to let him get away with it, and the other bit that says, you don't want him to get in trouble. oh i don't know.

i think i will go and try and be in bed before 1 am (this inability to do so contributes to my miserable tiredness) but so does not sleeping when i get there, so its not all my fault!

oh and it's Spring! and there were fields full of tiny baby lambs, there were twins and little black sheep and also, there were bunnies, and it was quite lovely.

there were words. they have gone. this is better.
It is defended. they were there. i kept them because they are good.
I'm a bit confused. i added those.
i am bblah and sxkcrk and frgtgeerf.

these are new words but are better than the old ones.
i am going