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WEEP

omg (again).

My Contemporaneous notes end with "DADDY" - I couldn't function beyond that point. And what a point. DADDY came back. OMG their Daddy saved them and He was PROUD of Dean, even with the deal and the everything he was PROUD and Dean saw and oh I know there was so much else going on, and Daddy issues shouldn't be the focus of it - but oh they are so very much all the way through and his daddy was proud of him.

But Oh. Dean sitting vigil and watching over Sam and "Let it end!" - some things are more important and oh my God I can't wait till I dare to read fic without being spoiled. There was the moment when Dean was watching over Sam and I said to myself that I bet in fic he talks to Sam - and then he did, and he talked so beautifully and angry and such self esteem issues and it's all his Daddy's fault and Bobby sees that and oh.

And she said he has a tarnished soul. Poor baby.

Those boys hide so much, lie and suppress and protect each other and suffer and oh.

BOBBY! Oh he was a revelation and so low key reaction, but it was all there and then in the lot, with the confrontation and telling him he has value and his life DOES mean so much and Dean, just quietly "I couldn't let him die, Bobby" OH.

And I wondered why the demon didn't know about Sam, but I guess he did. And Sam killed Jake and was cold and scary and hell opened and the pentogram seemed to work and

Then I lost allcoherence because JOHN. JOHN was there and helping and oh. And The demon was cruel and I thought he was going to kill Dean and Daddy saved him and then Dean shot him and I couldn't believe that that was that.

AND beautiful John and Dean and Sammy and then they talked and Sam knows and They talk and deny and yet their eyes say so much and Sam let Dean know that it's okay to be the protectee sometimes.

O.M.F.G #2

And now I know naught of what happens and I have 12 more episodes (although I did see the xmas one actually, so I have 11) and OMG!