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[lolabobs]

I'm beginning to get overwhelmed by the thought of Christmas - the present thing, I have *no* spare money and have no idea where presents are going to come from. But I'm also getting stressed by the social demands - my diary is filling up already, christmas meals, (I have to do everything twice now, two teams = two of everything!) nights out, pantos, gatherings, family stuff - it's smothering me a little at the moment!



I know it's linked to all the stuff that's going on as well, with Mum and Anita's health up in the air it's hard to know what's going to happen with them. ie we have no idea what actual Christmas is going to look like this year yet. I'm trying to fit in hospital things for Mum in with the new work schedule and my own appointments, and all the travel to Norwich on top of everything else doesn't help.

Argh, and while I'm having a whinge, I'm still not 'belonging' in the new team - I'm there so randomly at the moment, there's no chance to get a routine or familiarity. The whole team (bar one) is part time, so they're all there at odd times. I don't know. Most of them are lovely and welcoming and so on, but we haven't had chance to gel yet. Oh and you know what else is depressing? Being given a timetable for Programme delivery that books you out until November 2012. 2012 for Heaven's sake. (A timetable issued with the caveat "Unless we get made redundant.")

I just feel squashed at the moment, and rather self centred for being so, when all that is going on for other folk.

ugh.



I need to discover a secret talent pronto, so I can whisk myself away from all this nonsense!

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[sc-fossil.livejournal.com]

I'll be the bitch in this and tell you I do what I want. The family either understands or not. *shrug* I'm too old to dance to other people's music. Yeah, I get comments but it's my life, not theirs. If people are willing to cut me out or off because of my own decisions, then obviously they care more about themselves than me anyway. I'm not rude about it or mean, I just say no, thanks and don't offer more to justify decisions I make. I don't have to have another appointment either. But I said I was a bitch, right? *g*

(My aunts tend to give me the hairy eyeball but I smile and kiss them and do what I please.)

[lolabobs.livejournal.com]

My immediate family are fine; it's more the work stuff that bugs me, all the meals etc (plus a few are in work time, so I can't not go).

But I do need to work on getting better at saying no - especially without the need to fabricate an excuse. The silliest is my friend and I - neither want to go to gatherings, but without the Power of the No end up going to help each other through a horrible afternoon!
I'll get there one day!

[hardboiledbaby]

Feeling squashed under the circumstances is certainly no surprise. It's a stressful time. I hope you find a way to get un-squashed soon *hugs*

[lolabobs.livejournal.com]

Thank you - we'll keep hoping.