Feeling insecure

[lolabobs]

I'm feeling isolated from my friends, feeling ousted and scared. The trigger for this is a silly thing, linked to something that always happens whenever F is back in town and therefore I know it should be ignored, but today it's getting to me - and in the classic cycle of negative thinking,I'm sitting here telling myself bad things about myself and the way my life is and -

normally I accept it, but sometimes the changes since we lost Dad, my new role as carer/manager of all things and the fact that it means all I ever do is work and visit my Mum, and am a kin dof non person, boring and with nothing to contribute really gets to me.

And it's

Oh I don't know. It's because he's back and when he's back I lose his sister and it all gets scary and sad and I'm going to go to bed instead of feeling sorry for myself.

Comments

[birggitt.livejournal.com]

*hugs you really, really hard*
See? These are the times when I know technology has all wrong. If they had worked in a transporter, instead of an iPhone, I'd be there, giving in-the-flesh hugs, and making tea and offering cookies... *sigh*

*more hugs*

[lolabobs.livejournal.com]

Thank you - yes a transporter would be lovely. I'll take your virtual hugs in the meantime though.

(HUGS)