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[lolabobs]

On the 10th October my boss came into work to announce to all that when he went into hospital for tests surrounding his suspected Hepatitis a couple of weeks prior, they had in fact discovered that he had liver cancer. I missed him, but he came in to answer questions about his planned treatment and to avoid rumours.

Today we heard he died over the weekend.

It's been a stunningly difficult day at work. He was a man who provoked strong reactions, and many people didn't like him. I've had numerous ... disagreements.. with him and his attitudes. But this was shockingly quick and, although I had little faith that he would beat it given the info he was giving about his treatment options, no one was expecting such a quick death. Work have been surprisingly empathic, our big boss drove over to break the news formally and they spent the afternoon calling those who were out of the office, or who have previously worked closely with him before making a company wide announcement. Big Boss even told us we could go home if we needed to.

It's been an awful atmosphere since we heard, shock and strangeness setting in and a sort of "what now" feeling. I've struggled with it - not so much through mourning him, just because of the emotions it triggers, the understanding and compassion I have for his family who are reeling in the face of the sudden loss of father/partner and I sort of felt a little guilty about that, but not really. We feel what we feel after all.

Still. A difficult, crappy day.

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Thanks - yes, very much a shock.